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Am I the only one?

24/7/2015

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Okay,
I'm going to be brutally honest.
Because this is where I can be real.


I feel this constant pressure of having to already piece my life together. 

Sounds easy doesn't it...
piecing things together.
It's just like putting two pieces of a puzzle together.
That's all.

Just that the piece don't fit, 
and they're not even from the same puzzle.
And my hands are trembling,
and I'm blindfolded,
and I can't breathe.
Plus there's fire.

Fire freaking everywhere.



Before you overthink anything,
nothing is going wrong and I really do love what I'm doing.
I love being able to push my creative limits and come up with crazier content,
but sometimes I can't.
I can't..
 because I feel I'm not good enough.
And though that is THE most cliche thing to say,
I really feel it.


I don't want to give up.
Not this early in the game and I know there is no reason to give up.
But I miss security.
I miss being told what to do and I'll just do it.

Here's me protecting that little flame that has been sparked.
Sometimes it's just me sitting around that flame,
praying and hoping that it'll grow.
So I'll just sit there,
like I do on Friday nights.
and I'd write down one million ideas.
Then I'll freeze because everything seems too big for a freshie like me.
I'll psych myself out and go to bed disappointed that I couldn't do it.



If you were looking for a nice ending,
I'm afraid I don't have it yet.
I'd just like to know,
do any of you feel it too?


Or am I the only one?
1 Comment
Abigail
2/10/2016 10:09:53 pm

Wow, thanks for being so real and honest. And if you didn't know, that actually encourages me. I guess everyone has a dream but hardly are we told that there will be moments like this where you'd feel so fragile, weak and sometimes disqualified. Everyone talks about the glory of success but hardly on the process. I totally feel you. And glad to know I am not the only one feeling that way too.

But I have to thank you as well, for the courage, passion and perseverance you portrayed. And I've always wanted to say, you've done a really great job and still is. You are a Kuching treasure, keep doing what you love and inspire many more to do the same! May God continue to drop more inspirations, strengthen and lead you to become the salt and light in this generation!

Way to go, Joyce! You have my support always! <3

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