#feelings

I haven't officially launched this yet.
So I am sitting here semi-freaking out because there is just SO much to do.

There are times I wonder to myself why did I choose this.
Why pick something so much more difficult?
Why pick a road that feels sort of lonely sometimes?
Why do something different?
Does different even work?

There will be disappointments.
There Have been disappointments.

But I realise no matter what other people say about SOOL,
it will work.

Not because I can push through limitations,
not because I am incredibly brilliant (far from it actually),
not because  I am going to work day and night,
but because SOOL isn't about me.

Time and time again when I freak out about the nature of things,
the structure,
expansion... finances .... clients... meetings...
I become paralysed but 'what ifs' and the fear of 'not enoughs'.

I'm not in this to prove a point.
I started this because I believe in people's stories,
nothing has changed.
Even with organisations onboard, with different clients...
Even when money tags along.
The core of SOOL will not change.

So I write this more for myself than anyone actually,
but thanks for reading if you have actually read this far.
Its people like you that believe in SOOL that will ultimately make SOOL work.

Because as much as I am scared of starting this new adventure,
I am more scared of it never starting.