SOOLperman's identity

We all have multiple identities.

Some of us keep our identities hidden,
just like superheroes.
I know I did.

I tried to be cool when I was younger,
I'd act a certain way according to the group of friends I'd hang out with.
I'd spend too much money on clothes because I wanted to look like that famous person I saw on the magazine,
and the magazine said I only needed 1 step to look like her.

"All you need is an oversized denim jacket!"
and I believed it.

What a lie. 

I still looked like me,
just with a jacket 3 sizes too big.

Over the years,
the group of people I hanged out with narrowed down a little.
I didn't need large crowds of attention anymore,
I needed relationship.
I didn't need likes on instagram,
I want you to like me.
As a person,
not a picture.

I tell people straight up that I'm not a great alcohol-drinker,
I sleep at 10,
my favourite vegetable is the cucumber,
I like Justin Bieber,
I still watch Disney series that are inappropriate for my current age,
I don't really like Games Of Thrones (whoahh, I said it shoot me.)
and I am afraid of large groups of people.

My identity got clearer as I got more secure in myself.
I used to think I had to say the right things so people would like me.
*Don't roll your eyes, you've been there too.*

So, if me having a bedtime of 10,
and an avid hobby of candy-crushing on a daily basis is not cool...


Joyce Khoo is not cool.
I repeat,
not.
cool.